*Forgive me, this was originally posted two years ago.
John 6:60-71 (New International Version)
Many Disciples Desert Jesus
On hearing it, many of his disciples said, "This is a hard teaching. Who can accept it?" Aware that his disciples were grumbling about this, Jesus said to them, "Does this offend you? What if you see the Son of Man ascend to where he was before! The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing. The words I have spoken to you are spirit and they are life. Yet there are some of you who do not believe." For Jesus had known from the beginning which of them did not believe and who would betray him. He went on to say, "This is why I told you that no one can come to me unless the Father has enabled him."
From this time many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him.
"You do not want to leave too, do you?" Jesus asked the Twelve. Simon Peter answered him, "Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God."
Then Jesus replied, "Have I not chosen you, the Twelve? Yet one of you is a devil!" (He meant Judas, the son of Simon Iscariot, who, though one of the Twelve, was later to betray him.)
The words of Jesus are not always easy, nor do all of his teachings come light. There are times we are going to be taken to a place that will sharpen us, that will show whether we believe what we say we believe. These moments will challenge us to do what comes naturally (walk in the flesh) or what comes from the Spirit. There are instances that allow us to show God off, to walk in His light, and to show Him glorious. We are given moments of trials to grow, to learn, to teach. There are times that it would be easier to revert back to old ways, to habits God has been trying to change and grow us in. Doing so is more natural, but never beneficial.
I have recently had a huge misunderstanding with a friend. I became offended at what was meant as a joke. Having known nothing of why the person would say what was said, I reacted and found myself wanting clarification. Let's be real, I am girl, I
need resolution! Feeling like the misunderstanding was going extremely too far, I sent an apology. I interpreted the response I received as a total and utter rejection, and it hurt. My sole purpose was reconciliation, and it felt like that was not going to happen. After a phone call today, apologies were given on both sides, and accepted. I cannot be sure if the air has been cleared completely, but I am confident I followed the leading of the Spirit. There were times I wanted to yell and come out swinging, but I did not. I reminded myself that who I was is not who I am to be now. Reconcile. Period, that is all. I did not need to hear I was right, that it was not my fault, all that was needed was reconciliation.
The Spirit spoke, my husband was praying, and I felt settled, and thankful for what came out of my mouth and the tone of my voice. And you know what? It had nothing to do with me. You see, I wanted to scream and yell and use my words to cut down. But God stepped in, said, "Not this time sister, this time, I get to be front and center, you step back." You see, it was not about me. It was about allowing God to be God, to allow the lesson to be taught, learned, and spoken. It has always been about him, and when things go wrong, it is typically because I am placing myself into the spot where He belongs.
I sit here, typing this post, thankful for so much. I am thankful that God does not give up on me, that my husband supports, encourages, and challenges me. I am thankful for moments that cause friction because I get to grow and learn. This circumstance has opened the gateway to some wonderful conversations with my husband, and we are blessed because of it. This has allowed me to see even more clearly how safe I am under my husband's protection. God has blessed me richly with the covering of himself and my mate!
Every trial, every moment in this life has a purpose. Nothing happens without reason, without an eternal glory. This world has nothing for us, but it is preparing us for Heaven, which awaits us.