Nov 19, 2012
Seeking My Own Answers
Tired. Fatigued. Not seeing progress. That sums up how I have felt for most of the year. However, I am not one to sit around and partake in a long standing pity party. Regardless of how I have felt, there has been work to be done, dinners to cook, a house to clean, laundry to do, a child to raise and a husband to build a relationship with. When something needs to be done, I get it done.
For the last few months I have been telling my doctor(s) something just felt off. Specific, I know. As they stared blankly and asked questions like, "Are you depressed?" "How's your home life?" No and blessed, thank you. They typically followed up their questions with statements like, "Well, you are a mom, you are going to be tired." What? I am supposed to be ok with mediocrity? I do not think so. With the clean eating I have adapted and the workouts I am doing, along with the best nutritional supplements I could ever find, I have known something was going on. The problem has been getting someone to listen and dive into the murky waters with me.
I called one doctor and said I wanted some blood work done. A few hours after having the tests, I went and retrieved the results myself then began calling and asking friends who lean more towards holistic medicine for advice on where to turn. One doctor's name came up multiple times, so I called him. When I went to see him, I had a copy of the recent blood work, results from a physical from earlier this year, the nutritional plan I follow, my workouts, and information on the supplements. I had a stack of information, and in no uncertain terms said I knew something was not working as well as it should but I did not know what.
As he looked through all the information he told me I am anemic and have borderline thyroid. He also said he believed I should have a mercury cavity and a tooth that has had a root canal removed. After more questions, he told me he was sending me to have a few more tests done. Finally, someone is listening.
Answers? I still do not have them all yet. I am waiting for the results of a food allergy test along with a call back from another doctor on some test results. It's frustrating not knowing exactly what is causing the "wires to trip" leaving me with low energy and without the results physically I am busting my tail for. However, I am certain there is no disease causing any of this, and for that I am thankful. This road is far from finished, and I have to pull myself out of frustrating thoughts quite often.
I am learning to listen for when I need to rest, when I need to push harder, and when I need to be ok with wherever I am at. I am not good at resting. No sleep? No excuse, I still hit the gym. Not feeling well? Back off some, but I'll still workout. So typical, I will not take my own advice.
For any of you who are frustrated with the quality of healthcare you are receiving, stand up for yourself. Find the team of doctors who will work with you to find the causes, not those who like to just throw prescriptions at people. I called to have tests done, I sought out answers for what I believed to be going wrong (I was right). You have to be proactive!
What I wish is that my chiropractor (the only constant over the last few years and the only one who has helped me pinpoint some things), the D.O I am now seeing, and the OB/Gyn would all work together. Can't we all just get along and play nice? The chiropractor will, he always does. Now to get everyone else on board.
I will not accept mediocrity or being lumped into the general population. I know how I work, how my body has responded in the past and how it is responding now. Yes, I want answers, oh, one week ago, but am finding myself thankful to finally be on a road that will lead to some solutions.