Surely then you will find delight in the Almighty and will lift up your face to God. You will pray to him, and he will hear you, and you will fulfill your vows.
Christine. We do not have a habit of talking on a weekly basis, via the phone, but when we do, I love our conversations. I should not be surprised however, considering the strange energy we have always had around one another. In between bites of lunch, redirecting our children, and repair men showing up, we were able to have another wonderful conversation.
As we shared what was happening in each of our lives, changes we were making, lessons we were learning, we came to a few profound, if I do say so myself, conclusions. For starters, there is blessing in obedience. You knew that, right? There are moments in life, like little children, we kick and wail against what we know God is desiring of us. And even in our disobedience, somewhere in our minds, we know that obedience will reap its own reward. It is safe to follow where God leads, it is beneficial to say "yes" to what He calls us to, and we are stronger when we are walking in obedience. Even so, we have moments we choose to act like spoiled little children, all the while knowing what our heavenly Father wants for us is better, and healthier, and wiser, and filled with rich blessings. The same attitude we see in our almost 3 year olds, we ourselves still have, on occasion, towards God. Ironic isn't it?
I mentioned that I believe we will see what we have truly missed upon entering Heaven's gates. Although God may say, "Well done, my good and faithful servant," I told her I sometimes believe his next sentence will be, "but look at everything you missed in the moments you did not listen, in the times your vision was so narrow." As beautiful and bountiful as our lives are, I think we, in our humanity, are missing a huge portion of what God has for us. We view the world through a limited scope, and often with shades of yesterday. We know what He is calling us to, yet our mind's eye does not conceive, in full, what that can look like.
We are, well, I should speak for myself here, I am in God's way. I think I get it, I think I understand, but my life is just a vapor, I am merely an image of the Creator. Can I know the mind of God so fully? Know him well, yes. Know him intimately, yes. Know the twists and turns of his every plan? No. Understand the reason for moments of unabashed joy and gut wrenching sorrow? No.
I know God. I limit God.
But that cannot be right because the creator is not bound to the confines of the created. No, I limit myself and what God can do in and through me because I am so short sighted, narrow minded, and earthly bound. Oh to know in full what I only know in part! To put on the fullness of his glory, that is what my heart longs for. I want to see the full magnitude of his glorious display, the depth of his colors, the vibrancy of his life and works. I want to be there, alongside of Him, not missing one single thing.